Niond

Bottom gay guy, 35 years old.
I turned total bottom last year, after I got my first fist; you know what they say - "once a fistee, always a fistee" :)
I would love to get fisted more often and to get sissified.
If you can and want to wreck my pussy or you want to talk about it, feel free to message me.

"The confirmation theory"
First time I masturbated (around 11 years old), I had a dream with a girl and a boy from my class, and I chose him.
No matter how many straight porn movies I've watched back then, I always imagined myself as the girl being fucked.
First time a guy sucked my dick, I struggled to keep it hard, but I still had to think at how I would have felt if the situation was reversed so I can maintain the hard-on.
First time I sucked a dick, I was thinking I'm doing a gross stuff. But once I took it all in my mouth, I loved it.
First time I finished in a guy's mouth, it felt nothing out of the ordinary.
First time other guy finished in my mouth, I spit it immediately. 15 seconds later I was licking that guy's cock and cleaning it of every last drop of semen. Ever since, I swallow every time I have the chance to.
First time I fucked a guy's ass, I was feeling so weird... and I still had to think of porn. Very very few made me able to fuck them properly (just 4 of them, actually).
First time my ass received a cock, I was scared and asked the guy to take it off. 10 seconds later I was almost jumping in his cock, he pumped me balls deep for some 15 minutes, until he finished. He than used a small dildo on me, so I can also finish... because I new that it is rude for the bottom to finish before the top.
First time I barebacked and finished into a guy, I admit I felt acceptable, but it still didn't feel right.
First time my ass was barebacked and filled with cum, I felt betrayed, even if I consented to this. But afterwords, I kept dating that guy to get my pussy creampied, as I now quality people for this are hard to find (he is clean, regularly tested and on PrEp). "I'll get you pregnant", he says. "Yes, fuck my pussy", I always reply.
First time I got a cock in my ass without lube, it felt like my ass was burning. Now I have no problem in taking even the biggest cocks balls deep without lube (I suck it a bit and it's good to go) at the beginning. Of course, we add it after he put it in and out 2 or 3 times, because it is necessary and things might get damaged on both sides.
First time I took a hand in my ass... he managed to put it in, but we were out of lube, so he had to get it out and stop. I was shivering from pleasure, it was my hardest ever orgasm, even if I didn't cum. I want more of this, I wouldn't mind living my life as a total bottom fisted cunt!

I never crossdressed... I know It'll feel strange the first time. And I know that when the first man gets my panties down, bends my back, raises my skirt, pulls me by the hair and sticks his meat inside me balls deep in a single move, I'll totally love it! And from that moment I'll become a total sissy cunt forever.
I know that after that moment, my sex organs will be called pussy and clit.
I know that I will never get pregnant, but I'll always try.
I know that my only orgasms will be from prostate or by rubbing my clit.
I know I'll start using methods of removing the possibility of male-style masturbation: dick cages, maybe some piercings to make it painfully impossible to masturbate... I'm not yet there and I don't think I'll ever resort to irreversible body modifications, but these are long-term plans anyway.